Idk what’s up with me lately but I just want to leave and not come back. I’m gonna miss everyone around me but I just need to do this for myself. I need to be selfish for a little to become selfless. I just don’t know how to do it. Maybe become a hermit. Maybe I just need a new environment but whatever it is I need to change. I have became an addict. Not to a particular drug but to drugs. I like to be at a different mindset. It makes me feel as if I can leave my body and explore. But idk. I don’t even know who I am yet…. They always tell you that as you get older you figure it out but I don’t think so. I think you can just hide it much better. So good that even you believe that you have your shit together but in reality nobody really knows what the fuck they’re doing with their lives. What’s my purpose? What’s my passion? What am I?
